The Confession

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On the 31st of May 2013, I quit smoking. I just decided to stop. Cold turkey. Bang – done. 

Recently, I started smoking again. 

There are reasons why I went back to it. Moving house, broken ankle, best mate moving to Melbourne, and the Scout situation that I can’t talk about until tomorrow. Reasons that have seen me decide to not treat it as a big deal, and just go with it. 

Until the 31st. Because again, World No Tobacco Day is my quit date. 

I don’t like smoking. I hate how it makes me cough and smell and waste money. But there is something soothing about it. That routine and time to zone out. That’s what I’ve needed the last couple of months. So, I’ve gone to what I know works. No where near the amount that I was smoking originally, but still, smoking. 

I’m telling you this because I told you when I quit. I kept you updated and shared that quit journey with you. And in the interest of transparency, I’m telling you now that I started again. But I also want to tell you what I’ve learned about smoking, in the months I had as a non-smoker. 

1. It offers an immediate social group. Smokers know they are ostracised and looked down upon. This makes a strong basis for acceptance. 

2. Smokers generally aren’t pleased to be smoking. There’s a huge amount of negative press when it comes to smokers. Not smoking, but smokers. The person on the end of the cigarette. The thing is, they’re addicted. It’s a physical addiction. So back off. 

3. Smoking really does smell pretty bad. 

4. It’s expensive, but again – when you’re a person who is addicted, you find a way to pay for that addiction. You just find a way. And if you ever wondered about why people who can’t afford to smoke do? It’s because it relieves stress. It triggers happy chemicals and makes the world more tolerable. And if it works for them – for anyone – who are we to judge? What right do we have? 

5. The pictures on the front of packets have changed and in my opinion, have less impact. 

In six days I’m quitting. If not before. 

Not due to pressure from others. Not because of pictures on packets or lack of public spaces to smoke in. 

But because I want to. 

And there is zero point in trying to quit if you don’t want to. 

Do you smoke? Did you smoke? How did you quit? What is it like, being a smoker now with all of the restrictions and laws and price hikes? 

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6 responses »

  1. Totally the right mentality to have about quitting. Gotta do for you cos you want to, not cos you think you should. I’ve quit about 4 times, this time I truely hope for good. It’s been almost 5 years, I see and smell smokers and I can’t believe I used to smoke. Now being a mum I still worry that in the time I was smoking I still could get sick from it and it scares me. Good luck in your effort.

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  2. Good luck to you in your renewed effort to quit smoking. It does sound really difficult. I found number 1 very interesting. My daughters and I were just talking about this the other day when we were at the airport. We sat down outside and someone was smoking nearby and it was blowing on us. We looked around for the smoke and then got up and moved to a smoke free location. How does this make the smoker feel? Angry? Sad? Annoyed? Don’t care? We were just wondering…

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    • Hi, Good question, it says a lot about you 🙂 If it were me, I wouldn’t care. But… I also make a concerted effort not to smoke around people, particularly non-smokers. You get polite smokers and impolite smokers. I think you have every right to not have to breathe in our stink!! xxx

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  3. I vape. I preferred it to smoking. Remember that all the anti smoking maniacs forget that smoking is PLEASURABLE. I never set out to stop smoking – the nicotine has health benefits. I stopped by accident.

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